Assimilation?

So I have been home three weeks now - and although this was not my first time in West Africa for some reason I am finding it so hard to pick up the reins of my life here at home - perhaps subconsiously I don't want to ? Perhaps I don't want to forget what I saw and experienced?

Perhaps its a stirring to get more involved ? to be less materialistic ? Funny though, I am not a materialistic person - I don't have to have the latest gadget in my kitchen, or have the latest look in my home or on my table, or even in my clothes. I do like things to look neat and tidy and I take care of myself - if I have one vice its that I like to keep my hair coloured ( I am not giving in to the grey look yet). But I am struggling nonetheless to settle.

While I was away, the landlord decided to sell the unit we are renting - ( again!) Neither myself nor the incredibly lovely and supportive man in my life want to move - we LOVE this place ! We are really seeking God as to what to do - we have made an offer to buy it - but that will necessitate some other financial strategies to change - and someone else also wants to buy it - of the pressure!

Perhaps that is a factor in the unsettledness.......... Perhaps there are changes afoot...............usually I respond well to changes - Please God, help me to have your wisdom!

Brr its cold and I can't sleep!

its a cliche I know - but life is a journey - sometimes the road is smooth, wide almost freeway like - other times narrow bumpy and windy with no knowledge of the what is around the next bend; sometimes there are steep hills with no way round or through - just one way over the top! And that is how my life journey has been - and no doubt will continue - my thoughts in starting a blog is to share some of those moments in that journey.

So here I am - its early in the morning, cold and wide awake at 2 am again! but I am ensconced in my lovely warm bed! Its only a few days since I returned from West Africa where I was a medical volunteer again for three weeks and I am not sure what time clock my body is on - but definitely was warmer there! I so LOVE being able to use my nursing skills in this way - there are always challenges - professionally and personally - but what an experience. My family ( all adults now) are so encouraging and supportive as is the number one man in my life - and for that I am so so blessed.